Anew
2007-11-13 - 1:38 a.m.
He was the first one to tell me he loved me, but now, he celebrates when I'm down, hoping that it'll make me more self-aware. I'm already pretty self-aware, but I guess this is just an opportunity to learn more and more about myself.
Point One: Stop holding on so tight. You're sure to suffocate someone in the process, and your ribs can't handle the pressure.
Point Two: Stop guilt tripping. The trips are no fun for anyone, and you know it.
Point Three: Don't cry around her when she already feels like shit. It doesn't make sense, and it's just an ugly tactic, even though 4/5 of the time it's not intentional.
Point Four: Give her room to breathe because when you're feeling claustrophobic, it doesn't matter who's blocking your airways.
Point Five: Give yourself the space you need. She's not always going to be exactly what you need, and that's not a recipe for disaster, that just means you need to reach out to others...or yourself.
Starting today, I'm going to be different. Healthier physically and mentally. Because I'm sick of doing the relays in my mind, and lying dormant in my body.
I want to do something about the way I am, instead of just making these petty complaints. I want to make a change, make an impact, make my own life story a positive one.
Me.
Ps. Today's just the day to begin anew.