Stupid & Ugly &...Happy?
2007-09-16 - 2:36 p.m.
I've been feeling anti-myself lately. I don't think any amount of pills they could give me would keep those feelings away. I want to feel better, I really do because I have a smile on my face, but I really feel ugly and stupid too. I don't think any amount of pills they could give me would keep those feelings away. I think I'm happy, but I think feelings could lie because is it possible to say in one breath, I hate me, but the next say I'm happy? That's me, in a nut shell, and lately, I've been on a quest to hunt down M.J., but it seems as though my first girl-on-girl kiss, my first best friend (besides Steph) in a while is trying to avoid me...Maybe I'm just too much...or maybe I'm not enough.
